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Recieved: 2000/07/24 17:49
Subject: Re: [K-list] Hello, Forwarded
From: Druout
On 2000/07/24 17:49, Druout posted thus to the K-list:
Forwarded with permission
In a message dated 7/23/00 8:08:45 PM Pacific Daylight Time,
ONAHARDYATnospamprodigy.net writes:
Hi,
Well, I thought this started only about a month ago. After further
reflection and some insight I'm wondering if this hasn't been going on
longer. I mean the physical, etc. problems that sometimes happen first,
etc...
Anyway, a month or maybe 2 months ago I was having a lot of discomfort
in my hands and legs. I knew I had carpal tunnel because I had been
diagnosed with mild carpal tunnel a few years ago. I had testing done and
they found nothing this time. My hands and feet were tingling and itching
so badly that I was scratching myself raw. Nothing was helping. It was
like electricity going through my arms and legs...lots of electricity.
I'm a Reiki 1 practitioner (not practicing right now) and began to
believe/understand that maybe for some reason I was experiencing an increase
in energy flow. When I understood what it was, it eased some and I was able
to work with it a little and slow down the irritation.
The next thing I knew, and I can't tell you if it was day or night or
when, it's all kind of blurry..the energy went all over my body and it was
like being plugged into a light socket. Sometime during all of this I
became so aware of everything, I began to understand so many things, other
things I just knew and I don't know how.
One night as I was drifting off to sleep, I started to astral project.
It scared me to death and I pulled myself back. The next day I found myself
living in my head with part of me sticking out the top. I know it sounds
insane but that's what I experienced for about a week. Every time I would
jump back down into my body I was miserable...so much negative there, and
I'd go back up to my head. I began to understand that a big part of what
has been holding me back was my need to control...everything and everyone.
I was able to throw that away and I felt the most magnificent joy and
peace...absolutely indescribable. That's not to say that I don't still try
occasionally to control something but I'm aware of it the minute I start and
I can back away from it.
Another night I walked across this bridge to this book of past lives and
began to see my most recent past life. Ever since then I wake up in the
middle of the night with words in my head that I have to look up on the
internet...stuff that I don't even know the definition of and have never
used in my life like tantric mouse (look it up). Kerala was the first word
and it was a place in India. A lot of my readings keep taking me back
there.
I go off into meditation without any warning at all. I don't drive
because I'm legally blind...probably just as well right now. It's like
being on a conveyer belt and being fed information constantly and soaking it
up like a sponge. A lot of it is more like remembering than learning, if
that makes sense.
Well you asked for it so there it is. :) I'm a little more grounded now
but there is no end to the things that I'm being led to read and look up,
etc. I've been frustrated and scared because no one understood what was
going on besides a good possibility that I was having a nervous breakdown.
Believe me, it did enter my mind too.
However if this is a nervous breakdown then I never want it to stop.
It's wonderful, overwhelming, scary and so so soo very loving and peacful in
here most of the time.
Maybe scary isn't the correct word, not sure what it would be. It's
unsettling not to be in control of the things that are happening. Oh, I can
control some things and ultimately could stop everything I guess if I tried,
but my curiosity seems to be stronger than my fear.
I'm just glad I found a website that let me know what was happening to
me and now I've found other people who have experienced some of the samd
things. :)
Thanks to everyone who has been so kind to me.
Blessings, Peace and Joy,
Ona
> Dear Ona,
>
> A very warm welcome. Not at all crazy! :)) I'm still searching for
> information nearly 4 years later! Incredible, isn't it! Well, you have
come
> here at a very slow time (usually there are too *many* posts!) Hope it
> becomes more interesting/informative for you shortly! Perhaps you can
tell
> the list of few of the things you have been experiencing and what the
> frightening parts have been?
>
> Love, Hillary
>>
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