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Recieved: 2000/07/24 15:32
Subject: [K-list] (unknown)
From: joe Wood
On 2000/07/24 15:32, joe Wood posted thus to the K-list:
This post is a major delurking. I have actually kept up with the onslaught
of emails on both lists, but haven't felt like putting my 2 cents in, or
havent made time.
(1) That blue color - this was one episode of my k-life or mania-life that
I had forgotten until reading these posts. During an experience a couple of
years ago, I was up all night, and eventually, passed into what seemed like
a death state, when all in my house had that blue-violet tint to it - the
light especially. It was also one of the first and only experiences I had
with 'entities', although I perceived them to be representatives of 7 or so
different collective conciousnesses. It seemed that they were all afraid to
take some next step on their own, so I volunteered to do it. A symbol
formed in my mental conciousness composed of the unfulfilled ?? of each of
the conciousnesses. It floated to me and onto me and into me in my mind's
eye.
(2) My playhood bud was Herbie-the Love Bug, though I talked to him through
a seashell. Dont remember when he showed up or went away.
(3) No other experiences with flashing colors,orbs of lights, or other such
critters. I seem to have a distaste or distrust for entities - I don't
think you can really know who/what you are dealing with. Over time, you may
come to trust that voice, but an awful lot of people have such
entities/voices directing them in a harmful manner. According to
Bodhidharma (the sage who brought buddhism to china), demons can take even
the appearance of Bodhisattvas. At one point, in the Lotus Sutra, I believe
it was Sariputra who was eventually so overwhlemed by the Buddha's answer to
one of his questions that he proclaimed, in tears of joy "now, now I know it
is you, buddha, and not someone/thing masquerading before me." even one of
the buddha's closest disciples, years after remaining with the buddha, was
not always able to discern clearly the presence of the true buddha. But
maybe this all comes down to my own personal fear or distrust of the unknown
. . .
(4) Ye olde heart chakra - oy, how i'd love to have it open again. I have
been learning to shield myself, desensitze myself, or maybe that's just the
meds. In any case, save for a couple of days during and following a yoga
class 2 weeks ago, i have felt dead in the chest. gotta try some camel and
fish poses.
ya know, i don't have this high-energy functioning on a daily basis these
days, not even monthly. a couple of times i have gone a few months riding
the wave, learning more, accomodating the K and myself. i tried to get away
from it for years - taking a buddhist path and treating such sensatons and
experiences as makyo, illusion, distracting me from the path. (not in
tibetan buddhism, which is really tibetan shamanism with an indian twist in
my book). of course, having the western medical profession tell you you
belong in the group with this label is also difficult to overcome,
especially when your family goes along with them 100%, in spite of
acknowledging 'psychic' experiences involving myself.
like to say more, but gotta go - here comes da man!
jgw
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