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Recieved: 2000/06/12 18:07
Subject: Re: [K-list] Stifled, zen zen and zing zing
From: huka9802:First huka9802:Last

> I'm so sorry Paul..... no, i'm not feeling sorry for you in the sense of:
oh
> the poooooor guy!, but it makes me sad to feel you being in the situation
> you have to face. I wish i could hold you for a while...... sometimes
these
> computers and these internet connections are just not enough.
> But with all our shining glowing energies in this group.....
> could we make a healing light love support circle for Paul?????
> Perhaps even at a certain time as a group?
> love
> mia
>

I think that's a great idea.

I also want to thank Paul, El, Valerie, Isadora...did I forget anyone? for
their posts on the subject of love/neediness.
I can really identify with how you feel Valerie, some of the same stuff goes
on here, as much as I would rather not do it; I do find focusing on loving
myself and taking care of myself can help some. Sometimes I just let myself
have a pity party; after a while I get bored with it and go do something
else.
And on the subject of personal experience, I really resonate with some of
the posts.
Those are the ones that get a big yes from my body when I read them.
And the posts I don't relate to show me other possibilities.
I think it is very scary to have needs, because if you have a need and it
doesn't get met, it hurts. If you (I) never admit to having any needs, then
I am always safe from pain, except for that dull ache of dying inside
because I am not being true to myself.
I would share more except that I can't form the thoughts about it into
coherent sentences. I currently have some pain about a relationship that
doesn't meet my "needs", partly because of distance, budgets, schedules,
partly because of different personalities and "needs". So I ask myself what
are other ways I can meet my needs.
I'm not sure how long it will be before some of the external restrictions
are gone; maybe a year, since that is how much longer I will be a student
and tied to this area.
(heavy sigh) Gee, where did all that come from? Oh yeah. From my feelings,
which I try to repress.

Karen
>
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