To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/06/05 12:11
Subject: Re: [K-list] Feelings
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2000/06/05 12:11, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 11:31 PM 6/4/00 +0530, Kathryne O' Connell wrote:
>Dear All,
>I have a tremendous sense of wanting to belong to the group, and feel that
>this is not possible without sharing my experiences.
You have been sharing, and you are accepted. You are welcome here. :)
>I notice a comradarie between many or you, and I would love to be as free in
>my expression of my feelings without having to edit them.
>My fear is that of being exposed and misrepresented by some people.
I went thru this too, when I was new on the net... and the K-list was
a much rougher place in those days, but I kept a Richard Bach quote in
mind, and challenged myself to be brave and naked. The quote is "Live,
never to be afraid if anything you say or do is broadcast around the
world.. even if what is said, is not true."
> I would
>really appreciate some advice on this. Ones experiences are so sacred and
>exposing ones vunerability can leave one open for exploitation on many
>levels. I am an adult survivor of severe abuse.
So there is some post traumatic stress stuff where you *react* to
stuff that is not a physical threat.. ?? That can be harsh, but from my own
experience, I think that email is a really very *safe* was to learn
detachment from being a slave of the hot buttons of your personal history.
Really, Katharine, you are on the other side of the planet and no-one is
going to track down where you live and give you violence for what you say
on email. We are not going to look at you and complain if your hair is
uncombed, or about how you look or how much money you earn.
Be brave and naked, and if it makes you feel vulnerable, enjoy feeling
vulnerable and safe, both. If words hurt you, look inside for the hurt
place and give it love. It is coming up, to be healed and released.
Vulnerability is perceptual, feelings of safety really come from within,
from faith that everything is unfolding as it should, even if the weather
looks cloudy in the moment.
>I would love to be bombed with Love. I learn only through the power of Love.
Well, I don't mind if members want to love bomb each other. I don't
want to set up schedule for it, or anything, like we used on other lists,
but I will explain a gentle method and folks can use it if they feel moved
to.
Get grounded, so that your mind is clear of fear, and focus on your
heart. Focus on loving, and feel your heart opening. Put your hands
together, and imagine the energy from your heart is circulating thru your
arms and travelling from your right hand to your left. When you feel the
energy movement or see it clearly, pull your hands apart like you are
holding a basketball and imagine a bubble of energy growing between them.
Breathe in light, and imagine your heartbeat pumping it up like a balloon.
When you feel like it is full of love and joy, hand it over to the Angels
to deliver to the person you made it for, whenever they think best. When
the recipient is in a receptive moment.
Blow it away like a bubble to send it on it's way. Or like letting go of
the string of a helium balloon. More like a gift, really, than a bomb.
Perhaps they need a new name.. love bubbles. :) Sometimes the angels will
deliver them backwards thru time, to undo the wounds of the past, so that
it is as if they never happened.
>My aspiration is to become Love. Unconditional Love.
You will reach your aim. That is what Kundalini does. First, you must
learn to love yourself unconditionally. Love all the old wounds and hurt
places that were a part of making the perfection that you are right now.
Blessings!
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