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Recieved: 2000/03/08 20:35
Subject: [K-list] Fwd: Re:new Buddha..
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2000/03/08 20:35, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <serpentATnospamdomin8rex.com>
Moonshadow gave me consent to forward this to the list. Enjoy!!
>Date: Tue, 07 Mar 2000 05:17:38 -0800
>To: Moonshdw999ATnospamaol.com
>From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <serpentATnospamdomin8rex.com>
>Subject: Re: (no subject)
>
>
>At 11:10 PM 3/6/00 -0500, you wrote:
>>Mystress,
>>I have been subscribing to a few lists for about four months now. I have
>>been in
>>the Darkness for about a year. I visited your website to get to know you a
>>little.
>>I know you are not bound by morals or what is "right or wrong"
> Interesting way to put it.. :) I would say, my morality is Divine
will, not social programming. I follow my bliss and my gut instincts.. they
have their own sense of right and wrong.
>
>>and I know you
>>are not afraid to speak the truth. I believe that you may hold something
for
>>me.
> If you believe it, then it is true. :)
>
>>It takes alot to scare me but you make me feel a little uncomfortable.
That
>>is
>>why I am writing to you now. I don't follow any religion pr easterm
>>philosophy.
>>I don't follow anything really except what I have experienced to be.
> Good for you! :) That is wisdom.
>
>>To get to the point, I have a problem with my sexuality. I don't really
>>have a
>>sexual identity. I have been attracted to three people my entire life,
and
>>all three
>>have triggered my Kundalini.
> That is beautiful. :) That is your sexual identity. Natural
Instinctive Tantric Priestess.
>
>> Since I am a girl, and the people that I have
>>been
>>attracted to are girls I don't know what to make of it.
> Why do you need to make anything of it? Love knows no gender.
> Stop worrying about labels. If you are afraid of people judging you,
then don't tell them. :)
>
>>I have never had a meaningful relationship.
> You are having the most meaningful relationship there is, a true love
relationship with your own Divinity. All other relationships are pale
shadows, by comparison.. cheap imitations.
>
>> I think I am afraid of rejection.
> I don't think so, or you would have allowed your feelings of
discomfort to keep you from writing to me.
>
>>Maybe I have alot of suppressed sexual energy.
> Maybe your sexual energy is being redirected to where it belongs..
that's what Kundalini IS.. procreative energy directed up and in, to fuel
your unfolding elightenment, instead of out.
>
>>The major Kundalini release happened because I fell in love with a woman.
My
>>guide
>>appeared as this woman and i believed that it was her.
> Your guide took the form of this woman, to get your attention.. and
the disappointment with the physical woman, was to discourage you from
looking for guidance/relationship/love outside of yourself.
> Ask your guide to make love to you.. :)
>
>> I don't believe that
>>now
> Good.
>
>>but it has left me confused and not trusting anyone. I experience my
>>Kundalini
>>teaching me and I also experience other beings guiding me.
>>My relationship with my guide during my major Kundalini release was that
of a
>>child.
> Your Guide is the manifestation of Goddess within you, and you are
Her child, as are we all. The only difference is, you know it, feel it, and
most folks don't have that pleasure and freedom.
>
>>I feel like a child most of the time to my higher self and my guides. I
have
>>experienced being male and female also, but mostly a child. What am I?
> You are a child of the Universe. You are innocence, and curiosity, and
love. You are life happening in the here and now.
>
>>I feel others sexual energies but I am confused about my own.
>>The first woman I loved rejected me, the second also.
>>Now I can't let anyone in. It keeps me digging deeper and deeper.
> That was part of the purpose.. to teach you to love Goddess within
yourself, and have none before Her.
> When you become firm in that, and fall in love with your *self*, others
will be attracted by that.. the love flowing out of you from the inner
relationship with the Divine Beloved will attract more lovers than you
want, or need.. and when you stay firm, and keep putting Goddess First,
that love will attract one who will also put Goddess within themselves
first, and your love for each other will be blissful sharing of two whole
people, instead of two half people trying to complete themselves by trying
to change each other... which is the sorry replacement for Goddess that we
call "falling in love"..
> Love fearlessly, love Goddess and love yourself, love Goddess in all
things.... and that love will flow back to you, multiplied.
>
>> I feel
>>that I don't have an identity at all, that I don't exist.
> Me niether! :) :) :) That is the freedom of the Buddha. :)
> That is what the seekers, are seeking. To become infinite nameless
nothing. :)
> You made it! Well done!! I celebrate your egolessness.
>
>>Do you have any insights?
> Yes.. :)
> Your unhappiness comes of comparing yourself to others. You don't have
to. Goddess made you to be you, unique and perfect as a snowflake. Your
uniqueness is bound in your DNA. You are already perfect, in the here and
now.. you always have been..
> It is your own doubts and judgments that torment you. You don't need
them. Let them go..
>
>>I'm almost afraid to ask.
> Of course.. because believing in the opinions and judgments of others,
who cannot understand what you really are, because they do know know what
*they* really are, is what cast you into darkness.
> Only accept my opinions, if Goddess within you agrees with me. If your
Kundalini tells you I speak truth. If what I write is not resonant with
that, then it is not your truth.. so throw it away. I won't be offended..
:) Do that, with all the opinions you hear.. including your own fears.
> You don't have to be anything.. it is enough to simply BE.
> There are no names, labels or pigeonholes of ego that can hold the
infinite.. and that is what you are.. infinite. Stop trying to be less, to
please the invalid opinions of other people, and the darkness lifts.
>
>> I don't think I am
>>worthy of
>>Love.
>>Coriel
> Beautiful Buddha..:) I find you utterly charming, and totally
loveable. :)
> Goddess finds you worthy to be Her Vessel.. She loves you
unconditionally, whether you think you are worthy, or not. :) Your
unworthy feelings are simply part of the natural humility that *validates*
your enlightenment. Who among us, is worthy to be God? Yet, God is what we
all are.
> If you were here I would hug you and cuddle with you and hold you warm
in my arms, and tell you how wonderful and beautiful you are. Radiant.
>
> I probably would not have sex with you, because such intimacy of two
Buddhas transcends mundane sexuality... it is a greater bliss, than sexual
orgasms. If our cuddles flowed into that expression, it would be alright..
but niether of us *needs* sex, with the urgency that other folks feel need,
eh? That procreative energy has been redirected into the unfolding of our
evolution as vessels of a loving Goddess.
>
> You are wanting to be "normal".. but to be a Buddha is not normal,
eh? It is not normal to be awakened. Why do you seek to be average, and
judge yourself according to the opinions of averages, when you are so much
more than that? Leave the judgments of the mundane behind. You don't have
to be trapped by them.
>
> Think of the things you like to do best. The activities, that when you
are doing them, there is no room for fear or insecurity.. only joy in the
doing.. and do them. That is your purpose.. Follow your bliss. Follow the
will of the Kundalini, instead of fashion and social morality.. and just
enjoy BEING.
> I love you.. thankyou for writing to me.. Blessings!!
Mystress Angelique Serpent, http://www.domin8rex.com
Vancouver, B.C., Canada. Officially the most beautiful city in the world.
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