To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/11/17 05:12
Subject: Re: [K-list] egotism vs spiritual growth
From: Steve Salter

Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:

> >No judging, just questioning. I question myself every minute of every day.
> Doesn't that get boring?
>

Boring? Quite the opposite actually. It enables me to examine my motives and
existence in real time and feel truly alive rather than just plodding through
life, reacting to stimuli.

> You drew a line at D/s games, where is that line, now? Perhaps the distaste
> came from ignorance.. :)
>

At that point in my life I felt a need to visibly demonstrate the superiority I
felt. Obviously, that mere action demonstrated my inner pain and feelings of
inferiority. When I realized that I was complete within myself and that all
humans were equal in -potential- if not in other ways, I felt no need to
continue. Besides, to me and me alone, it seemed there was a better way to reach
ones potential through means other than (what I regarded as...) debasement.

So, I went another way. Instead of accepting submission I decided to try pushing
peoples envelopes. I helped people empower themselves through my Love. Trouble
is, I lost my way and neglected myself.

Now I am more careful with myself. I keep a light wall around me since I tend to
be a people magnet and open it only when something inside me tells me to.

Besides, I have a long way to go to reach my own potentiality. :)

> Are you asking for the sake of conversation, or to validate your ego's
> spiritual ideal of a questioning mind?
>

I like conversation but I am more interested in learning about others. Why do
they believe what they believe, how did they get where they are now? I suppose
the implicit challenge flavor is an old technique that is not always appropriate.

-Steve.

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