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Recieved: 1999/11/10 02:09
Subject: Re: [K-list] Black magic and misuse of Power?
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent

On 1999/11/10 02:09, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:

At 05:40 AM 11/9/99 , CKRESSATnospamaol.com wrote:
>I've been too immersed in other concerns to read much from the list for
>awhile, but I did tune in when I noticed the long post from Angelique. As
>much as I have an affectionate regard for her, I can't go along with much of
>her metaphysical/map of reality.
     Sorry, El.. but who said it was my map? I am not attached to it.
   Martin asked what was up with the idea that the vibe is rising and the
Eden doorway, so I outlined the paradigms suggested by folks (lightworkers,
yes I am one sometimes when Goddess calls on me to be that..) working with
that particular reality map, with references to my sources so he could do
more research on his own.
  His question was pretty specific about what paradigms he wanted more
information on, and since no-one else had responded to him to answer his
question, I did. I thought I made it very clear that I was expressing
current paradigms held by the individuals who speak about this stuff,
telling him that what it means depends on who you talk to.
   I thought I made it clear that I don't have too many opinions of my own
about it, and have not come to any firm conclusions. I said at the bottom
of the post, "I dunno".
   Don't shoot the messenger!

   I have spoken at other times of the inevitability of war, as part of the
natural selection of Nature, and of how awakened people are not "better"
than unawakened folks who chose to play the game with no "time-outs" for
   Please consider, whether your expressed spiritual superiorty over so
called "Lightworkers" is not an us-and-them superior attitude of your own.
I did not express the idea of superiority in my post, I suggested the idea
of differences. Different beliefs creating different realities.

   I really don't have too many paradigms of my own. When I write to the
list, usually I am channeling a response from the unconscious of the person
I am writing to, and I adapt to thier paradigms. It means I may appear to
contradict myself quite a lot, but I don't care. Any human idea of "truth"
cannot express what is infinite, so it just doesn't matter. Truth apprears
to me, to be a variable that is a subjective experience depending on your
reality tunnel.

   In my present realty, aside from being invisible some of the time, I
seem to be getting attacked when I post to K-list, these days, and I'm
getting really tired of it, especially as it is right in the list
guidelines, to be respectful of the beliefs of other cultures... even if
they think eating goat shit is sacred.

  In my experience, if you want to be a healer, be prepared to eat shit. A
friend found a description of me, in a book of Mexican Witches. Pale skin,
nocturnal, skinny, big eyes, hermit.. the whole deal. This kind of Witch
was called "eater of filth", because they suck sickness out of people. Shit
Eater.. that's what a healer is. That's what I am, and that's what people
give me.. thier Karma shit. Pretty glamorous, eh? LOL!!

   Good that the Africans put it right into the ritual, so anybody who
wants to be a healer so they can get respect and approval, and feel
superior while playing "hero" gets weeded out right away. Better than
here, where they give them a Phd. to put on the wall and don't care if the
healers are only after the money and prestige.

  You don't like the term "Lightworker", do you feel better if we call
ourselves "Shit eaters" so you can feel superior? Or would that be
attention-getting false humility, with a generous dose of martyrdom? If
you want to judge it, you can always find a reason.

   Sorry, El.. I don't mean to aim all my bitching at you. I'm just getting
really tired of this shit, I'm getting shit eater's bulimia where I try to
eat it and just end up barfing it back in the direction it started from,
smelling worse than it did the first time. Maybe I should take a clue from
the goat shit ritual: that's what is supposed to happen.

   ooo.. giggles and tears after I wrote that, sign of Truth in my reality

   Good thing too coz I've been under psychic attack from one of my
ex-slaves for the better part of a week, coz I opened the shielding to
check if I had anything to forgive her for, and ended up getting 8 months
backlog of her obsession with me. I couldn't figger out where it was coming
from, at first. I released her because she could not give up her tendency
to misusing her power for black magic manipulations, and shielded myself,
but I didn't have the heart, to reflect it back to her.
  I guess I need to barf it back to her, it's wiping me out.

   I'm gonna go back to lurking, now, and working on writing the on-line
course that I hope will raise money for a Kundalini Sanctuary, Seems like
a better use of my time, than posting to the list, these days...
Enjoy the list, it's here for you. Blessings..


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