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Recieved: 1999/11/09 10:33
Subject: Re: [K-list] Black magic and misuse of Power?
From: Jenell

On 1999/11/09 10:33, Jenell posted thus to the K-list:

Sic' em, Sister! I've had quite all of that kind of 'us' (superior,
aren't we wonderful!) vs 'them' (oh that we could get rid of all THEM!)
attitudes that I can take in my church related experiences, thank you!

CKRESSATnospamaol.com wrote:
> I've been too immersed in other concerns to read much from the list for
> awhile, but I did tune in when I noticed the long post from Angelique. As
> much as I have an affectionate regard for her, I can't go along with much of
> her metaphysical/map of reality. My personal probings in this direction
> usually leave me with as many questions as answers. For instance, from the
> standpoint of synchronicity, there does seem to be a connection between
> storms, hurricanes, etc. and both the individual and group human psyche, yet
> natural disasters -- as we humans see them -- also serve ecological purposes
> which have nothing to do with clearing the air "of human emotional chaos."
> So how much is being caused by us and how much is instead a sort of
> holographic mirroring, where we reflect outer energies which simultaneously
> reflect our inner energies? Am I grouchy because the weather is cruddy, or
> is the weather grouchy because I'm cruddy, or neither/both?
> And I recently read an article that said meteorologists have found that
> contrary to public opinion, there hasn't been an increase in the global
> frequency or severity of major storms. The earth has always gone through
> cycles of intense weather patterns, but we've only recently had the satellite
> surveillance and worldwide communication facilities to be collectively aware
> of how often storms are occurring.
> This one will probably get me booed, but the whole business of a rising
> planetary vibration seems tenuous to me, especially when this theory is used
> to divide the world into us (the evolved folks) and them (the lower caste
> dregs). It sounds too much like the old paradigm religions, where the
> good/saved/righteous people are rewarded with heaven/health/wealth/happiness
> while the bad/heathen/ignoramuses get shipped to hell or doomed to run like
> hamsters on the endlessly revolving wheel of karmic birth/death. The only
> difference I can see is in terminology (i.e., "negativity, blockages, Big
> Fear" instead of "sin, heresy, ego" and so forth).
> If you're not a lightworker, are you a dimslacker? There is an elitism and
> smugness here that really gives me the creeps. Most of the people who go out
> into the trenches, putting their bodies and sometimes their lives on the line
> trying to help this gazillion-needy-causes world know nothing of vibrational
> levels, and they don't go around congratulating themselves for transcending
> the human condition. The idea of a "love" which can be attained by a special
> group of people whose job it is to cleanse the rest of the fear-ridden
> low-lifes through forgiveness or psychic jujitsu or whatever doesn't sit well
> with me. It seems like staking claims on things we're too small to own.
> I've had my heart blown open so wide I could forgive anything, but at that
> moment I knew "I" wasn't doing it. I was merely an awestruck witness to this
> overwhelming power operating through me.
> I wonder how a spiritual philosophy can be unitive when it is so inherently
> divisive? If we're all connected, then aren't we equally vulnerable to being
> overcome by fear, greed, rage, grief, etc.? And aren't we all worthy of
> experiencing love, peace, joy, comfort, fulfillment, and so forth? I don't
> see genuine evidence that these experiences are more deserved or earned by
> some than others.
> I do believe that there are a rare few extraordinary avatar-souls who are so
> egoless and pure that they remain totally centered no matter what provocation
> or turmoil they encounter. Yet from my own transcendent experiences, I don't
> see how any type of esoteric knowledge, right thinking, inner guidance or
> spiritual practice can pave the way to this level of consciousness. And I
> also think that we're wherever and whatever we are because that is precisely
> what the universe needs of us. A hummingbird isn't inferior to an eagle
> because it can't soar as high; each has its own role to play in the whole.
> For the last seven years, I've been involuntarily enrolled in a course in
> suffering via physical pain and illness. I've gone from trying to heal
> myself to feeling utterly crushed and defeated by it to raging against it to
> trying to accept it to beginning to glimpse the dark value of it. "It"
> includes everything on this plane that deprives, torments, persecutes and is
> generally regarded as destructive. I'm not saying that I've made peace with
> any of this. Yet I have learned to respect it as purposeful, which on some
> days helps me endure it and some days I don't give a damn, I just want it to
> stop.
> I've come to understand that the harsh-side horror-show stuff is more than
> garbage that needs to be sanitized by the Light or hauled off to some
> intergallactic dumping ground. All this stuff we want to get rid of isn't
> just psychic debris, it's here for a reason. Consider the oyster: no
> irritating grain of sand, no pearl. Or the carbon/diamond transformation:
> without pressure, all you get is charcoal. We can have simulated pearls and
> zircon diamonds without the fuss, but it won't fool a jeweler. The soul
> wants the real thing.
> In heaven, or a Golden Age when everything is easy and everything can be
> managed, there isn't a possibility for or meaning to qualities like courage,
> compassion, honor, loyalty, endurance, humility, strength, self-sacrifice.
> One might counter that these wouldn't be needed in a perfect world. But the
> soul needs them; it longs for the intense beauty that these qualities
> contain. The terrible truth is that they cannot be developed except through
> the fires of pain, loss, terror, shame, loneliness. It has been said that
> the heart is the only instrument that still works after it has been broken.
> Taken a step further, it is after it has been broken that the heart works
> most magnificently ...
> Maybe eventually the soul becomes so satiated it feels that it's received all
> the gifts of the Light and learned all the teachings of the Darkness, and so
> is able to let everything go. Perhaps then we are fully enlightened, forever
> liberated from need or desire. Then life is no longer something outside us
> or around us or even within us, because there is no separation at all. The
> core invisibility is when we cease to be visible to ourselves. Then there is
> only center, no us/them, only eternal radiance.
> El


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