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Recieved: 1999/10/17 13:06
Subject: [K-list] Re: From the Website.
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/10/17 13:06, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Hello:
I am sending your post onto the K-list so that the members can give you
their thoughts. I would suggest you join the list, as it will give you
ongoing information and support for your process.
(members: please CC: your response .)
At 09:07 AM 10/17/99 , you wrote:
>16/10/99
>
>Dear Sir/Madam,
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>I write to you in need of help. I have had a traumatic kundalini experience
>in May ´99 leaving me with numerous symptoms. If it´s not too much trouble
>could you please advise me on what and how can I return to wellness.
You cannot go backwards, what has been opened cannot be closed again.
You must go forwards with this, into a new kind of wellness in a changed
world. You had one dramatic experience, but the symptoms are evidence of
the ongoing work the energy is doing within you.
>
>The Event
>
>I woke up in the middle of the night, full of energy. I lay on the floor to
>get back to sleep. Instead I felt a warm tingling at the base of the spine.
>The kundalini energy, instead of rising through the central channel,
>ruptured from a blockage at the base of the spine and began speeding through
>the body as a ball of energy along different nerves. It hit the brain three
>times, but it couldn´t go out through the top of the head so it exploded
>there and caused a blackout each time.
Well, K. comes from the base, so if it was indeed reaching the head then
it must have been moving up the spine, tho perhaps not the central channel.
What makes you think there was a blockage?
>After some seconds it resumed its
>dormant state at the base of the spine. At this stage my body felt empty, no
>sensations of the body´s existence. I twiddled my toes and regained
>awareness of my body. However there was a lack of a fullness feeling in the
>lower abdomen and pelvic region. Straight away there were immediate symptoms
>of having both nostrils open and dry. Over the next few months I compiled a
>list of all the symptoms.
>
>Body Symptoms
> No Semen upon ejaculation although a drop of clear liquid is
>usually present
This is a good symptom. The creative energy is being redirected upwards.
> Slow Digestion, characterised by abdominal bloating, excessive
>wind, belching, irregular bowel movements
A cleansing process common after first awakening. Your dietary needs
have changed. Go see an allergist or naturopath that uses kinesiology or
vega-testing, scratch tests will not be as accurate for pinpointing your
new dietary requirements.
Ayervedic medicine can be useful, it is K-friendly.
Also, bless your food before you eat it, hold it in your hands and say
some familiar ritual of thanksgiving. This will change the vibration of the
food to be more compatible with your body. Water, too..
If it is properly blessed you won't feel it heavy in your stomach.
> Reduced sweating
Unusual.. my intuition says your body is trying to conserve minerals.
Take a supplement, like kelp or molasses, and drink more blessed water.
Flax seed oil is useful also, to cleanse and rebuild your nervous system.
Take it as capsules or a salad oil, don't cook with it.
> Sudden tiredness when initiating strenuous activity e.g. running
Toxins.. see an Ayervedic practitioner or a Naturopath.
> Loss of body sensitivity e.g. lost all ticklishness and subtle
>awareness of body.
That could be a few things, and it is good you are under a doctor's care.
I am not a Doctor.
May I suggest that part of this is a loss of physical boundary
sensations? Harder to tell where you stop and the chair under you begins? A
sensation of not being separate from your surroundings? Beginnings of
Cosmic unity..
I think the sensitivity will come back, in time, right now it is a kind
of natural anaesthesia. These nerves are being rebuilt in a new way, and
are temporarily shut down while work is in progress.
> Congested sinuses
... cleansing.. also related to your difficulty accepting your new state
of awareness.
>Mind Symptoms
> Acute anxiety attacks now controlled by Risperidone medication
Not unusual, but will be reduced as you come to terms with your
experience, and learn to have faith in the process.
> Reading has become awkward
It will come back, don't push it too hard. Your nervous system and
consciousness is undergoing an upgrade. Reading and speaking happen on
different sides of the brain, and K. tends to create greater unity between
the two sides, in the process of expanding consciousness.
Some systems will be shut down temporarily while the work takes place.
They will come back on-line, in their own time. Don't worry. Goddess has it
handled.
>Spirit symptoms
> The world seems a little bit unreal
> Feeling detached from myself when speaking
Well, this is what it's like, to have a "God's eye view".. The world is
unreal, and the detachment is a spiritual state. Shakespeare wrote: "All
the world's a stage, and we are players in it". now, you know what he
meant..:)
The part that observes is not emotional, is it? It simply observes, and
it sees more than the part which speaks..It is referred to as the Witness.
It observes the part that speaks, as an actor in a play, saying his
lines and emoting his feelings. The part that speaks, is a mask you wear to
appear to others in a certain way so they will react the way you want them
to. You created this mask as a child, to please your parents, and got so
involved in playing the role they wanted, that you *forgot* that it is not
who you really are. Kundalini wants you to remember the truth of your Self,
and so it is breaking down the mask to give you yourself back.
Who you really are, is the observer that watches.. the soul behind the
eyes. Stop worrying about the feeling of distance. It too, is functional.
Being able to observe the mask of ego, helps you to choose to dismantle it
thru insights and understanding. The process is one of
self-identification. You are not who you thought you were before Kundalini.
The energy is showing you different aspects of your self that you did not
know you possessed.
Don't worry, your path has been harsh so far because you have been
frightened by the unknown.
>
>Diagnosis:
>Diagnosed by psychiatrist as have an acute (nervous) breakdown. Perhaps the
>parasympathetic nervous system has been disrupted. I am being treated by a
>chiropractor/kinesiologist who has returned awareness and power to certain
>muscles of the body which have switched off from the event.
Yes, it is a breaking down of your previous way of seeing, and
perceiving thru your senses, and it is also a coming rebirth of new
awareness.
>It is important to understand that I am not having a full kundalini
>awakening but have just had one traumatic experience.
Your symptoms are ongoing and so is your experience. Your Kundalini is
simply taking on different forms for different tasks, and some of the ways
you perceived it have been switched off so there will be less resistance.
Go to the Grounding site and do the meditation. It will help to clear the
blockages and rebalance your energy. Don't worry, everything will be fine.
>Thanking you for your time and patience, faithfully,
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The grounding visualization for awakening Kundalini is at
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/ground.htm
or
Please visit this page when you have 20 minutes to relax
and do the meditation, as the page is "charged" with Shakti
and keyed to be released by your free will choice to visit the page.
Blessings, Mystress.
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