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Recieved: 1999/09/03 01:16
Subject: [K-list] Life, Death and Beyond ... was Entities
From: Christopher Wynter
On 1999/09/03 01:16, Christopher Wynter posted thus to the K-list:
I have been involved in a process over the last two weeks
which allowed the retrieval of the memories
of birth and first breath from the physical body.
>From it, I have understood the nature of entities ... many of which are the
re-creation by ourselves of aspects of us which have been projected onto us
by the wants, needs, expectations ... and prayers of others ...
For me, and my group here in Tasmania, it has also allowed the rememberings
of immediate past lives, the death, the judgements that saw the incarnation
this lifetime ...
As a result of this process,
I now have full conscious remembering
of 3 occasions during this life when I have been clinically dead ...
at 2yrs, 7yrs, 41 yrs.
and of seeing what was done to my body ...
and of seeing what was beyond death ...
Now, I can not prove this to you or anyone ...
except from my medical records ...
but, for me for a while, my experiences were a source of fear for me ...
I couldn't talk to anyone ..
about what I remembered ...
I didn't understand my fear ...
until I remembered ...
Then I understood why I remembered ...
My soul is not 'mine' ...
My Spiritual search has not been mine ...
It never has been ...
It has been the shedding of ideas, and thoughts,
wants, needs, prayers and expectations ...
wound by others like a multi-dimensional spider's web
over my own knowing ...
the purpose of my incarnation ...
As I floated over the body of my two year old,
I felt the barbs of need and expectations
of my parents in the forms of their prayers
like grappling hooks lance into me ...
that I would survive ..
grappling hooks that tied my soul's progression
to my parents' needs for a child ...
their beliefs about who I should become ...
and their grief at lack of fulfillment
should I die ...
They kept me bound ......
As I floated over the body of my seven year old,
I felt the barbs of need and expectations
of my parents in the forms of their prayers
like grappling hooks lance into me ...
that I would again survive ..
to appease my mother's guilt over what she had done to me ...
I felt the stranglehold of religion as it bound me
to its concept of God
I felt the panic of the doctors and nurses as they ministered
over my lifeless physical body ...
and I felt the pain of the electric shock
from the paddles used to recussitate me ...
They once again kept me bound ...
and added to the burden of my soul ...
At 41 years ...
for two weeks, I lay
drifting between consciousness and consciousness
in a hospital bed after a car accident ...
I saw and felt the needs, wants and expectations of my wife ..
that I would survive ... to pay the bills ...
other expectations and prayers added to my previous burden ...
and was dragged back to life by the doctors
who 'couldn't' lose another one ...
In the process of my remembering
I remembered the first breath
of consciousness entering this physical body
and dragging with it
the barbs, burdens, expectations and prayers
the hopes, dreams and fears of all of those
who wished for me to achieve
what they had not been able to
My soul, my life, until this moment
has not been mine ...
The process I have just gone through
has given to me on my birthday ...
for the first time in 54 years
the gift of my own soul
Now maybe, you may understand
why I write as I do ...
Christopher Wynter
Hobart Tasmania
wynterATnospambigpond.com
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