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Recieved: 1999/08/19 11:58
Subject: RE: PLEASE MAIL ONLY RELATED TO THIS QUERY.
From: eynet
On 1999/08/19 11:58, eynet posted thus to the K-list:
"Actually I wanted more info. on the concept of kundalini - what it is and
how will it affect myself ? also whether THIS is in anyway related to
kundalini ???
I have been recovering from a major illness from past one year and still
under treatment now - I had been suffering for past three years before the
actual cause was finally diagnosed and detected.
I had bouts of high fever 103F, and once passed out. I dont recollect being
helped back - but all I remember was as if I was travelling very fast to a
huge rather ligt and light could be seen and feeling of warmth and as if I
was moving at jet speed towards this 'light'.
When my husband brought me back to conciousness, which he says I had passed
out I had a very massive tingling sensation in both my hands - as if the
blood was trying to push its way out. And worst part that I could not move
both my hands and finger which had got numbed or paralysed although I could
feel a surge of tingling sensation simply trying to rush out of my hands.
Its something that I still cannot figure out but try as much I was unable to
move fingers how much ever I was willing them to.
My husband rubbed them and brought life into them and I was screaming and
shit scared that my hands had would become immoveable.
Was this a kind of experience related to kundalini ?
Even before this episode - I used to get tingling sensations or shivers in
my spine , neck and sometimes in my head.
I had a bad delusions or whatever once while normally sleeping ?I saw
rather while napping in the night I thought or hallucinated I dont know a
white figure of a lady with shocking red lipstick !!! I was so scared and
that my husband insisted that we keep the lights on throughout the night.
I recollect feeling similarly scared long back in childhood - accompanied by
these weird tingling sensations.
Anyway now I can laugh it off. But I have seen the worst possible phase of
my life - would always be crying for no reason - unable to lift myself to
even go to the loo - and had to be carried there. I had been suffering from
TB and have currently finished full course of medicines Allopathy and
currently still taking homoepathy medicines to rid of the side affects of
the medicines.
My self-confidence was in shambles during those initial months and I used to
pray listen to devotional songs like never before.
I used to love talking to dogs and cats and even saved a few stray ones
lives - who still come to me even now.
I have grown into a new person - I did not know I could sketch or write
poetry and visualise - and this is also credit to the team of Doctors and
to my family who all supported me throughout and still stand by me. I dont
know what I would have done without them all.
They were all like pillars standing by my crumbled body, mind and soul -
waiting for the day when I would become well in whole.
Iam fit and fine now but I have still tinglings at the back of my head and
frequently had mood swings.
But after making a trip to a hill station nearby I feel at peace with myself
and everything else. The trip in itself was refreshing in all ways and
rejuvenating - more so after visiting a 'Jyotir lingam' - of Lord Shiva ( he
is the God who is supposed to be the destroyer of all evil ).
I would like a response only if this is a kundalini experience or if I can
enhance myself - the one I have found ? ( Incidentally I used to feel very
confused and unfocussed earlier - perhaps due to heavy antibiotics,etc. )
"BUT PLEASE REPLY ONLY IF THIS COULD BE RELATED - OTHERWISE PLEASE SEND ONLY
RELEVANT INFORMATION ON KUNDALINI - WHAT IT IS AND HOW CAN WE INITITAE IT TO
ENRICH IF NOT BETTER ONES LIFE."
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