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Recieved: 1999/07/27 20:45
Subject: Re: [K-list] Mini poll---Dark Night Of the Soul
From: Daniel James Giszczak

> If so, how many of you have experienced what you consider to be a "dark
> night of the soul?"
>
> And if you did, what happened? How long did it last? And did it occur
> before or after K started?

I have experienced the dark night of the soul twice. Both times, it
lasted almost exactly for a month. Both were psychosis. The first
occurred around the same time I became aware of K. My memory of the
events is not as clear as it used to be, and it has been a while thanks to
mind-numbing prescription drugs. I've always wanted someone to ask me
about it though, so here is a brief description. For more detail, email
me, and I'll reply off list.

First off, during these episodes, I felt responsible for almost everything
that happened in the world or around me that I heard about. I had to keep
reassuring myself that I had nothing to do with it. Also prominent was
intense all-pervading fear and anxiety. The fear stemmed from alarming
beliefs that appear out of nowhere and were for the most part, wrong
(delusions). Difficulty functioning in society also was a part of it. I
was lucky to get up and eat under these conditions. I once had to take an
exam while under psychosis. I got an 18%. Also, everything that was
sensed became oversignificant in my mind. Everything was a sign that
meant something else. The mind was very cluttered. Many streams of
thought were all coincident, each being complex. I suffered from
"complexification" were simple things were made unnecessarily complex and
probably frightful.
Dan

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