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Recieved: 1999/07/24 12:29
Subject: [K-list] from ["Sharon Webb" <sharwebbATnospamstc.net>]
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/07/24 12:29, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
>From: owner-kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net
>Teegee asked me to forward this to the list, since her email came back
>undelivered.
>
>Sharon
>
>sharonATnospamfractalus.com
>
>Fractal Images by Sharon Webb
>http://www.fractalus.com/sharon
>
>-----Original Message-----
>From: LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com <LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com>
>To: kundalin-l-eATnospamonelist.com <kundalin-l-eATnospamonelist.com>;
>sharonATnospamfractalus.com <sharonATnospamfractalus.com>
>Date: Saturday, July 24, 1999 11:13 AM
>Subject: dark night poll...
>
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>>
>>>If so, how many of you have experienced what you consider to be a "dark
>>night of the soul?"
>>
>>Yes...
>>BTW, how the heck are ya Sharon??
>>I was just thinking of you yesterday. :-)
>>(((((((((((big hug))))))))))
>>
>>
>><And if you did, what happened? How long did it last? And did it occur
>>beforeor after K started?
>>
>>Mine occurred after realization of oneness, of God, of all there is (I call
>>it ''my three-hour tour")... K was extremely active for approximately 9
>>months prior.
>>After realization, a like occurrance of *birthing* labor happened - there
>>were days of extreme bliss, then days of (ewww)
>darkness/separation/nothing,
>>which overall lasted 25 days. The days (bliss/dark) became shorter and
>>shorter - expansion, contraction, expansion, contraction - it was very
>>noticeable to me as a likeness to labor.
>>
>>What I had assumed was to be a most beautiful and wondrous birthing
>>experience of Self, and a repeat performance of my mystical experience of
>God
>>became the MOST frightening thing anyone could ever experience -- facing
>>yourself in all its illusions -- seeing the ego and its workings, the world
>>and its illusions. It was too much to bear -- the remembrance of how long
>>*I* had been here, how robotic the world is and how we pull each others
>>strings, just as puppets. I took it as *truth* instead of lifting the
>veil.
>> I thought I had failed God and myself because I wasn't strong enough to
>look
>>at this with *open eyes*.
>>
>>This sent me for a tailspin in a downward angle for 6 months, where I felt
>>completely disconnected from God. Nothing I could do would help me
>>*connect*. I felt I was being punished, banned. My external life was also
>>in chaos, but none of that mattered. I only wanted to *feel* God in my
>life
>>once again, but there was no one there. It was THE worst experience of my
>>life... even moreso than when a little less than a year later, I
>experienced
>>insanity trying to reach God when my crown chakra blew once again. At
>least
>>when I was *insane*, I knew God was with me. The Dark Night of the Soul is
>>truly soul-wrenching, where I would literally wake up during the night
>>sobbing or moaning because of the separation I felt.
>>
>>Six months later, the dark night was lifted. I felt connected once again.
>>Nothing external happened... it was some sort of an internal shift. During
>>this horrid 6 months, many wonderful and beautiful healers appeared in my
>>life - reiki masters, love healers, healers that worked with angels, etc. -
>>all offering their gifts of love and healing that I hadn't (externally!)
>>asked for. Looking back, I can see I was never disconnected... but the
>>feelings I had, caused by my own assumption that I failed God in some way,
>>caused the separation.
>>
>>Thanks for the polls!
>>
>>Love,xxxtg
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