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Recieved: 1999/05/17 14:56
Subject: Re: [K-list] More Repressed Memory Coming Up
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/05/17 14:56, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 12:59 PM 5/17/99 , Dave wrote:
>
> Does the practioner get some sort of energy transfer from the sadism?
Yes, but the energy is different for consensual events and non-consensual
ones.
>
> Is there some sort of occult meaning to it?
> Or is it just plain nastiness? I'm talking about sadism on an unwilling
> victim. My Dad really liked the Story of O.
> But I really don't get what else he was into. I keep getting threats about
> Hell from the memories.
> Regards,
> Dave
It is possible that your Father was a Satanist who practiced Ritual
abuse.. but.. it is also possible that your K. is creating dreams with your
Father in them, to release some Karmic issues. Not to deny your experience,
but
false memories of abuse do happen, and looking at them as messages from the
unconscious rather than as actual events might be a useful strategy for
detaching from the emotional content of them, enough so you can understand
them
better and heal.
The human struggle for power is universal as plants competing for sunlight,
and I think the best healing path for you might be in seeing how this
Father-image is a reflection of yourself.
Hard to look at, I know.. but have you ever been angry or afraid, and wanted
to hit something? Have you ever been mad and kicked something to release the
anger, and felt better? Have you ever hurt someone, with violence or words,
when you were feeling scared? This is human. Forgive yourself, forgive your
Father..
Abusive parents tend to be coming from a feeling of powerlessness.. like
Bulimics, who cannot control their lives so they control their eating, abusers
get a feeling of power from the fear they provoke in their children. The
ability to make their children scream and cry may be the only place in the
world where they feel powerful and strong.. it's sad.. and a vampiric effect
where there is supposed to be nurturing.
The Celestine Prophecies has a simple explanation of why humans steal each
other's life energy, and the various strategies they use, to do it... from
Victims who manipulate "poor me" for sympathy, to interrogators who intimidate
with questions.. I'd also recommend the books of Eric Berne, John Bradshaw..
Simply put, each of us, when we are born has an abundant grounding cord
that
feeds us unconditional love. We know we are perfect, when we are babies who
haven't grown an ego, yet... we are also fragile, and need to be fed love from
our parents or guardians to thrive.
There are some not entirely conclusive studies to suggest that babies who
are
not loved enough sometimes leave the body.. crib death. Not to point the
finger
at any grieving Mothers.. the source of crib-death is not really known, but
there has been a definite connection made between overall health and the need
to be touched and held. Even early-born babies who are caressed, gain weight
faster.
Then along comes culturalization.. we are taught that some behaviors are
not-perfect, and feeling now unworthy of such unconditional love, and needing
the love of parents, we choke off the cord.. it is thinned and diminished..
since the cord is the source of our life energy, some folks who have very low
self-love are starving.. and since they are cut off from source, like Vampires
they feel they must steal the life of others, to live.
Especially if the parents were not generous in giving the love that is
needed, the child out of survival instinct learns manipulative strategies to
get the parents love and attention. Usually these strategies are carried into
adult life, and relationships. "Games people play"..
The strategies become love languages, and people fall in love with others
who
have compatable strategies. It is said by someone, that your ideal mate will
have all of the worst qualities of your parents, so you can work out
incomplete
stuff with each other..
From a Karmic point of view, the energy blockages that are karmic issues and
negative beliefs reduce the amount of life-love that can flow thru the
body. As
K. progresses and karma is cleared, life energy becomes more and more
abundantly accessible, from a trickle to a flood, till there is more than
enough and lots to give away.. the cup runneth over with love.. so healing and
Shaktipat become possible, and manipulative, energy vampire behaviors
disappear
along with the Karma... no longer needed.
So, looking at human behavior from this paradigm, it is clearer that
there is
no "evil". (live spelled backwards) There are only humans acting from fear,
which is the absence of love.. because they don't believe Goddess loves them
unconditionally... coz the negative beliefs choke off the pipeline.. round it
goes.. K. breaks the loop, sets the karma loose.
Your Father did not love himself, so he did not know how to love you.
Instead
he fed himself, on your fear.. feeling powerful was second-runner up to
feeling
loved... a poor substitute. You, have all the love in the universe inside of
you, and you can set him free, by loving him. Even if you have to time travel
to imaging him as an innocent helpless babe in your arms, reverse roles in
your
mind, and be his Father.. give him the love you did not get from him, and what
you put out comes back multiplied... you will "reparent" your inner child
self.
Blessings..
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