To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/02/20 12:18
Subject: Re: [K-list] Kundalini revisited
From: Larry Killen
On 1999/02/20 12:18, Larry Killen posted thus to the K-list:
Jill,
Thanks for the reply to you and all the others who have replied. I feel in
much closer company now. I am sorry for the lag in my reply. As stated
below, time is a premium and I budget it like a miser. I wish this school
was over. It leaves so little left for anything else.
I noticed a Ph.D. participating in this list. I am curious if she was
experiencing the K phenomena while pursuing her degree?
>Dear Larry,
>
>There are a lot of experiences in your post that I relate to through my own
>k activity. Over the past 6 months I've become acutely sensitive to the
smell of
>anybody processing toxins or impurities.
And I. And I found that natural body odors are far more enjoyable than
perfumes.
>Before a wave of intense k activity I often get mouth sores, kanker sores,
>as you described, and I used to also get really dry skin and splits in the
>skin on my hands, as you described. I also get intense sensitivity to
>sound and touch.
Yes and the mouth ulcers can be devastating for me.
>
>I feel like a baby sometimes, needing to withdraw to a safe quiet space to
>adjust in silence to the new level of information, conciousness
I have had numerous fantascies (and desires) of 'returning to the womb'.
Sometimes I would become so sexually aroused and was quite confused as to
what this meant. I would feel like a 'hound' and didn't really like it. It
seemed so 'unspiritual'. Later I realized that I wanted to return to the
fetal state to complete something. I still experience that when it is
strong. I don't believe I accepted the expulsion out of my mother's womb in
it's entirety and still need to re-experirence that event more totally.
>I need to eat huge quantities of food, and can be ravenously hungry a few
>hours later, and there is no weight gain at all through all this eating.
I do at times but weight is becoming a concern. My work is sedentary so I
need to pay attention to the calories.
One other thing. I often hear people relate K - awakening to back trauma.
Recently, around the start of this last episode of K-awakening, I had an
accident Roller blading. I fell very hard on my bad and also broke my
wrist. I was black and blue for several weeks at the base of my spine and
both cheeks. And again, it was a near pleasant bruise!
>Earlier on in my k experience, there would also be days in a row where I
>would eat nothing or one or two strange things only. Only oranges, or only
>warm milk, were a couple of the strange diets which asserted themselves.
>
>I think many of the people on this list have had the various body pressures
>and discomforts you describe, as the k energy works that part of the body.
>I hope you get some relevant feedback on that.
> the K activity is way too accelerated if I practice meditation. I
>practiced medtiation daily for 18 years until the k activity, but find I
>can't anymore at all, or the things you described become so overwhelming I
>can't function: I begin to get weak, miss work, etc.
>
>A lot of people on the list have agreed that Gopi Krishna's book on his
>kundalini experience isn't the best to read for someone in the early stages
>of the awakening, because it is pretty frightening.
Yes, I read that years ago when it first started. Actually I was far more
facinated than frightened. The hard part is convincing others that this
process is real!!
At the same time, I
>think you might find you relate to some of his experiences, and reading
>that at this time may provide a little context for understanding what you
>are going through. I wish you the best in this growth process, and look
>forward to talking with you more--
>
>Jill
>
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