To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/01/28 11:36
Subject: Re: [K-list] Kriyas
From: Constance
On 1999/01/28 11:36, Constance Ashworth posted thus to the K-list:
I don't know yet what Kriyas are. I am new to much of the book words used
on this list, but I am searching for names and additional metaphors to
contemplate and apply to my rapidly expanding experience and perspective.
I have "lurked" here awhile and have found so much comfort in reading the
words of all of you who also experience all of life in a deep reverential
way possibly due to, what I only recently could name, a Kundalini awakening
(for me14 years ago).
In all actuality finding this list has been a powerful source as an
opportune time for me. As I read others on this list speak of harsh family
encounters, due to their families' fears of our being different . Most of
my fellow adult siblings have continually, outwardly, judged and criticized
me...even suggested I had a split personaltiy. My parents exercising also
an intensity of concern for my state of balance, such as by questioning how
much time I expend focusing upon my search and comtemplative activities, in
order that THEY can make a determination as whether or not my children are
being neglected by me. It is ridiculous, but also very trying, but also
pushes me towards more growth.
Anyhow, it seems I still require validation for being who I have become and
for who I am trying to be. So many around me do not speak this (your - list
friends) language of the heart and this beautiful energy. I am gaining
empowerment with your help. thank you
Connie
Anyway, since then I have been very hard on myself to not be like other
people or could I have still expected others to perceive what to me is
obvious. Such as, when people here and there, at the grocery store or
wherever seem rude to my companion, I can so clearly "see" beneath all
behaviors and know the rude persons pain. I realized that I "read" people
with my heart
-----Original Message-----
From: Janpa Tsomo <j_tsomoATnospamhotmail.com>
To: kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net <kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net>
Date: Thursday, January 28, 1999 10:46 AM
Subject: Re: [K-list] Kriyas
>The most persistant syndrome lately is the 'freeze up' phenomenon. In
>meditation i just do not want to move, its like im part of the earth and
>sky.
>
>also, my friend the sense of great saddness is back. this tends to make
>me slightly edgy. alternating between serenity and weeping, but usually
>i dont cry, i just try to experience the saddness and not try to 'fix'
>it or resist it, but let it become. its an extension of the heart
>outwards. while its happening, its like my emotional tolerance and room
>to move dives into a sphere where i take everything personally. Lately
>my teacher has been trying to tell me not grasp at things. to let the
>mind be spacious. obscurations of it are just clouds. they will pass.
>its kinda of a trick of walking between fire and ice.
>
>maybe that isnt a physical kriya, but a mental one.
>
>this morning at work i noticed we had out mouse poisen. this saddened
>me, but i didnt pick up the mouse poisen and throw it out. wasnt sure
>what to do.
>
>have a happy thursday. eyes of the heart reach out to all directions.
>but what they see ego cannot tolerate. so let go of ego. relax into
>space or something. :)
>
>--jt
>
>______________________
>
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