To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/01/20 04:52
Subject: [K-list] For what it is worth.
From: Wim Borsboom
On 1999/01/20 04:52, Wim Borsboom posted thus to the K-list:
Dear So & So, thank you for your e-mail.
There was a bit of a row on the list that I belong to.
My writing may be as you say "mesmerizing" however that very quality makes
it difficult for some people to take. I write very directly, I think it is
the European Dutch in me. I hate beating around the bush, cannot afford
that anymore.
I'm also aware of the fact that what I write is an uneasy testimony of
frankness, truth, and the difficulty of living the truth.
I am very open, nothing that we do to recover truth in our lives is
in-human, so why not be open about it. This Kundalini process that I am
somehow quite successfully undergoing, is still quite a taboo subject,
even suspect with a few of our listmembers themselves. Most people who go
through intense traumas (grieving, divorce, molestation, war crimes,
abuse,.... (sadly, the list is too long) in their lives will sooner or
later show K. symptoms. Some call this " physio-kundalini" syndrome. Some
in the medical profession (most of them female doctors, what are man afraid
of ???) are since a few years reconizing the patterns.
Ppl. with this syndrome can easily end up in institutions for longer or
shorter periods, often under heavy medication and with hardly any
compassion. It is a very sorry state.
[...] took a leave from work for a while, altogether about a year over the
last little while, will have to start again in a few weeks. I am very much
considering a career change, [....] how easy the writing comes. In my job
as computer consultant I've done a lot of technical writing, which is quite
different from this. Also I have taught a lot in a variety of ways, from
kindergarten (Montessori) to grade two, training Montessori directresses in
Victoria and Vancouver. The money was poor and I almost sacrificed my
mental health because of that. Was very much taken advantage of. I learned
a lot from that, thus my p[....]
Presently, I teach a lot of rather complex computer programs as well as
project management using Microsoft software, for which I just finished
writing a Microsoft approved manual. Over the years I have been doing a
series of seminars for our company, travelling extensively. We recently
joined up with XXX, of Ross Perot vintage. I'm not sure if I want to fit in
that organization. But that may be just a minor excuse to turn myself to
different human involvement. [...] very busy, counseling, speaking,
supporting, crisis counseling [...],
Our family unit is a very strong loving supportive one, thanks to my wife
and son I am what I am, their understanding, patience and trust allowed me
to daringly go the radical way of finding out about human suffering. To
recover compassion and be compassionate to the people that caused so much
grief in my early life.
I've been close to what we call death a few times during my first few years
in this earthly realm, remember it vividly but could never, except for a
few years ago, figure it out, those strange states of existence from life
to afterlife. Almost 4 years ago while on vacation in Italy and after
having visited so many cathedrals with beautiful baroque art that struck me
as being so real, I underwent a extremely powerfull epifany of the Holy
Spirit. I was aflame for a whole night and was filled with knowledge that I
am only now trying to verbalize. During the same vacation, a little later
while in Holland I went again through a near death experience and all of a
sudden those early after life memories started falling into place. I was
strongly urged on my way to the divine light, by some very naughty almost
mocking angels (I will use that term because the general functionality of
angels expresses it so well) to return to life once more as I had work to
do, apparently . There was no arguing about it, they tumbled me back down,
to wake up in bed gasping for air. My wife quite disturbed with what I was
going through, as apparently I was making quite a hullabaloo to survive,
she said. Over the years subsequently, I spontaneously went through the
most amazing yoga practices and observances, initially my body was driven
to do the movements that are very much like traditional hatha yoga asanas,
initially I could only observe and and go into them. [....] Through this
period, my memories are spanning life times, thousands of years (one living
memory goes back some one billion years, hope to write about that, the
whole snake symbology became clear to me through that living memory, I have
been allowed to participate in the, what I should call "humorous divine
instance of eternal creation", and have gained great insight in the
extremely simple structure of what somebody calls the "God Particle".
I also participated in a lot of very old grief. Why human suffering why?
Then I remembered how it all began, as far back as human history goes:
unadulterated "Garden of Eden stuff". The misunderstanding between people,
Adam and Eve memories.... No one to blame. No Adam to blame. No Eve to
blame. No blame at all in fact. I'm so grateful to them, the radical
knowledge they recovered and did not want to keep to themselves. There was
not even an evil Evil just as there is no evil now. The detail that I
remember is staggering, I even know what kind of wheather it was, the soil
consistency, and the... sunrise next morning over the far hills. We (A & E)
had undergone a most amazing ecstatic experience of knowledge. So
beautiful. I have to write about it in some form. I would love to talk
about it. The story of Hope, things like original sin are totally
unfounded. It all got mangled up in the translation and inability to
comprehend by our offspring. Oral tradition wasn't as perfect as it is said
to be. Written tradition is even worse, especially when uninspired editors
got a hold of the copy. I retrieved memories of Hindu Gods (humans of
course) names and people I'd never heard off, except maybe vaguely, they
showed me the places where they lived and where their physical remains are
still buried. The child of Brahman watching how his father had just
finished building a stone kind of altar (the child's head just reaching the
top of the stone altar top, in an interesting domed building, built from
baked clay, irregular brick. Vishnu who quickly send me through to Krishna
who quickly let me experience Jesus's glory days as well as his final
suffering, who quickly reminded me of being this what I am now. The grief
and unbelief during Jesus's passing was immense, I have still not overcome
........ The reality is so beautiful even if terrifying. I don't hold to
the concept of past lives the way it is so popularized. Immortality does
not work that way. We all in our purest self, participate in the lives of
everybody where love is unconditional, where compassion is what we live
for. I frequent realms that used to be called hell or purgatory and there
are so many beings like myself helping "afterlifers" to rediscover that
there is compassion and love and hope. The eyes of these "damned" are the
most beautiful...., they have found that there is only one way out....
no... one way *into* immortality and that is through cooperative love, once
they are given that hope, that it is so, they help each other out in such a
way that each on their own makes it back to and retrieves divine light of
non separation and undiscriminating abundance and grace.
It is 3:45 here in the morning, you are probably just know yawning and
stretching and massaging your still sleepy eyes. I will go to bed now. You
are one of a few ppl. I have ever written this to, to such an extent, I
feel very grateful to you for wanting to know this story. The full reality
that I am allowed to consciously participate in, is not easy to listen to
for some people. Society has such a great stake (it thinks) in keeping the
status quo. But society at large should not worry because with this
knowledge and this hope the day to day world of work, and banking, and
producing cars and cooking and stacking shelves and being a factory worker
or a professor or a newspaper mogul will still be there The infrastructure
of the world is basically good, with this message of real hope and real
glory it will only be more enjoyable because we will be so much more aware
of our divinity and can realize it in day to day living.
I will just send this, I go to bed , no use to check the spelling, what you
read in between the words is more telling.
So & So, you have a very special first name. It comes from the Greek
katharos "pure" and Katerina, Katharina, Kathleen, Kaitlin, Ekaterina and
So & So all mean the same. Think of Katharsis, [....]you went through a lot
of that and still[....]
Much love,
Wim
DISCLAIMER!
Home | Archive Index | Search the archives | Subscribe
K. List FAQ | Kundalini FAQs | Signs and Symptoms | Awakening Experiences | K. list Polls | Member Essays | Meditations | List Topics | Art Gallery | Cybrary | Sitemap | Email the moderators.
symbol.