1997/05/13 05:46
kundalini-l-d Digest V97 #230
kundalini-l-d Digest Volume 97 : Issue 230
Today's Topics:
Re:Prozac and Mystress Angelique
Date: Mon, 12 May 1997 07:32:58
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <mistressATnospamdomin8rex.com>
To: Kundalini <kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com>
Subject: Re:Prozac and Mystress Angelique
Message-Id: <3.0.1.16.19970512073258.3107bf52ATnospamdomin8rex.com>
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No joke.
I have had experience with clinically depressed slaves, and the change in
them around me is remarkable. My slave cymbal's Mom saw the overnight
change in her deeply depressed son after spending a few hours with me, just
talking and getting charged, and decided I am an Angel. Whew! One of the
Bird tribes!
Another slave who is clinically depressed and on meds, whom I don't see
too often, just a coupla times a month, knows that seeing me is a cure for
the blues, anytime.
I have to be very careful with him when he comes to me in a fragile
state, sometimes, especially if the medication is wearing off, he takes
breaks periodicly and a harsh word from me when he is coming down is a
crushing blow... everything suppressed by the medication comes blazing up
to be released. The medication makes it harder to tune into his feelings
sometimes.
It also makes it nearly impossible for him to orgasm, so combined with my
energy the result is Tantric without effort.
One of my lovers years ago compared me to heroin, so much ecstacy, and
then a crash back to earth. Shaktipat effect of my energy field. Up to a
higher vibe, and then back down as the energy goes to work and stuff gets
released. My energy affects my slaves like a drug, rover giggles with giddy
delight like a child for about the first ten minutes every time I see him.
I ask him if he is like that around everyone and he just giggles harder and
says no, delighted with my amusement, delighted to be here, delighted to be
himself, just all round giddy giggly joy. It's neato! Fun to watch, fun to
share in.
Something happened awhile ago I am still trying to figure out.
I was sitting with rover at my feet, (he was finished giggling for the
time being) and raven buzzed to be let in to the building. When I felt her
coming towards the apt. door, I asked rover to let her in. He opened the
door... no-one there. Closed it again, and sat down while we waited an
unusually long time for her to knock.
So when she arrived I told her of feeling her coming and being mistaken,
and she told of an experiment she had been conducting in the hallway.
From the elevator, one comes down an L shaped hallway to reach the apt
door, which is on the end. As soon as she turned the corner of the L, she
felt her whole being shift. Thoughts she had been thinking on the bus all
the way over were gone, replaced by brighter thoughts...her body energy
changed... she felt a rush of energy come over her... (that was about when
I had felt her coming.)
Surprised by this, she went back around the corner... and she discovered
she shifted back as she had been before, thoughts and feelings of her trip
returned.... went forward again... experienced the shift upwards again.
she discovered a place in the hallway just around the corner where it
felt like she entered my dimension...as she put it. At the time, I simply
figured my mentally questing down the hallway to reach her had extended my
energy outwards.
A few days later thinking about it in the middle of the night wham I got
MERKABA!! This so surprised me I got up and paced the distance from where
I had been sitting to the place in the hall...it's about 45 or 50 feet. A
decent sized merkaba. Holy shit.
It was generally recognized by visitors that my house spell took the
interior of my previous home into another dimension, one aspect of it was
people losing track of time, and always having their sense of direction
somewhat confused on the way out.
But my house spells are limited to the house, so as not to intrude on the
neighbor's space.
I have done the merkaba meditation conscously exactly once, Dec., I think.
Sitting at my computer, following the step by step instructons. I could
feel the wheel spinning galaxy-like about me when I was done, and when ever
I thought about it later... but I didn't give it much thought.
Constructs of imagination are very real to me... I can go back to them
and feel them again. Sometimes I doubt the realities I feel with my
imagination. What's real?
At the time I did the merkaba meditation, I asked Angels and higher self
to assist, to take up the slack anywhere I was needing assistance... and
asked my unconscous to pay close attention and do a replay in my sleep
whenever needed.
So now finally I really get it that my merkaba is real.... and I kind of
understood before that my back injury might be about readjusting to handle
the energies involved in supporting a merkaba field... but I was not sure
if I believed in the merkaba.
At any rate, I am beginning to get quite a bit of evidence that I may be
carrying around my own private twilight zone..altered reality dimension.
Merkaba is supposed to be a lightship vehicle for dimensional travel,
ascension. So does this mean I am carrying around a pocket of 5d reality as
I move in a 3d world? Cool!
I guess that is the real idea behind ascension, ...or desencion, as I
have been thinking of it lately. Creating heaven on Earth.
We never left Eden.... we have been there all along, but that apple is
some wild trip, makes you hallucinate separateness.
Blessings, SSSSSSSSSSerpent.
At 04:50 13/05/97 -0400, David Bozzi wrote:
>Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
>
>> His feelings about this relationship in his own words:
>>
>> >It feels good! i feel owned, cared for, loved, appreciated,
>> >possesssed. <snip>
>> >Now i know that i m deliriously happy being a slave tightly controlled,
>> >expertly trained, sensitivly handled by an appreciative and possesive
>> >Mistress.
>
>
>A non-drug alternative to Prozac perhaps?
>
>
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